Working Mommydom

I know you're all doing a mental eye roll right now, another whiny blog about having to work instead of staying home with my kids blog.  This is some of that, but also some reality.  I had been mulling another blog over in my head for days now, and I saw a link; on Facebook of all places, to this http://lifestyle.msn.com/your-life/moms-coffee-break/article.aspx?cp-documentid=27892389.

Yes, another blogger posted this in her blog and MSN picked it up and put it out there for the world to read. I'd say, that I've honestly heard about all of them with the exception of the husband leaving me comment. People just say things and make judgements on everyone and everything. I'm not innocent, and I'm not proclaiming to be; however, I think moms are judged regardless of what decision they make. 

Leaving Munchkin at daycare everyday is not easy for me. Not because I worry about her, because I don't, the daycare she goes to is PHENOMENAL and we are blessed to have found them and to have the means to send her there. It's not easy for me because I leave her there and go to a job that I don't particularly like. No, I will not go on a rant about how much my job sucks, as my JOB doesn't suck, the people do; alas, I digress. I often ponder whether I made the right decision, to remain a working mom. I have student loans for a Master's Degree that I swore I'd use come hell or high water. Now I'm kind of "meh" on that concept.  I wonder though, if I'd have kept Munchkin home, would she be where she is today? She has great manners, counts to 10, does her ABCs, is potty trained, and speaks in full sentences and she's not even two.  I wonder would I have known to teach her all of that stuff on my own as a stay at home mom? Would she have suffered because I didn't have a hot clue as to what a 2 year old should know or not know? Yes, there are books, but each child is different. This is not to say that she's not learning these things at home. We are good parents, well, as good as we know how to be, and she is learning at home; but daycare has been a big part of her advancement.

All in all, I am sure that every mom, working or not working, has a bit of waffle once in a while, wondering if that decision was the right one for her family or not. In some cases, moms may not have had an option not to work or to work.  It's all based on circumstance for that family. I guess I wonder if any other moms have a minute where they question their ultimate decision/situation.  I think it's a natural human instinct.

I've often been tempted to pen a book about the craziness that was the first 6 weeks home with Munchkin, in which I did stay home on maternity leave.  Finding my way, while at the time was scary and new, is seemingly hilarious now recalling the situations I found myself in on many occasions. Hmmmm, there's more food for thought. Initially, when I thought about staying home for good, my reaction was, no way, I'd go crazy.  I'm not sure I would, but I did speak baby babble to my husband on a few occasions during my leave.  

This is a bit of a ramble, but as I read this article I started to count on my fingers how many times I'd heard these little quips in my life. After I counted through my fingers and toes, I gave up.