Life has been a bit hectic as of late, but I feel like I start every new bloggity blog that way. I'm feeling introspective today, so that's what we're going to get in this little blog entry.
Coldplay...that should explain my blog title. This is a line in their song "Every Teardrop is Waterfall." This has been stuck in my craw now for a week since I actually listened to the words to the song as I was driving to my new office, walking to my new desk, doing my new job. This is relevant, see how I'm bringing this all together????
I feel like the new girl at school in my job. I know many of the people in my office, but I don't KNOW them. I'm not sure I want to KNOW them. I have an option here in this new job to just do my job and remain pretty much below the radar. This job does require me to make waves in other parts of the world, and I'm secure in that role. In my office setting though, there are only a handful that I need to work with to be successful. Normally, I'd be the social coordinator, doing lunches, being social, chatting by the coffee pot. Here, I don't feel like doing this...at all. Don't get me wrong, I'm friendly, I'm just not going out of my way to learn things about others. As I said, it's peripheral.
This is a huge shift for me, not only with the new job thing, but in my approach. I don't feel the need to make everyone like me, I actually don't care if they like me. As long as I can get the job done well, I don't need to make life long friends. I'd rather be a comma than a first stop....I know that in this song, it's more a commentary about generational differences, but in my life it was more applicable to my new job and to being there, but not being THERE.
I am sure this is a ramble, as are most of my entries. It's just been a paradigm shift for me in my life. For 30 years, I've always wanted everyone to "like" me and I wanted to fit in. Now, I feel empowered to blaze my own trail and not give a %#%$# if I fit in. And, I like it. A LOT. I hope that I can encourage Munchkin not to wait for 30 years to get here.
Have you ever felt this way? Have you always blazed your own trail?
